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Even for those who are following such an austere life in the monastery, the Lord give up the habit for a long term collective life will never be easy.

We act according to the judgment of the values ​​that we have pre-selected to distinguish the form that our eyes can see, distinguish sounds that our ears hear, distinguish the nose smells that we I sniffed. We distinguish those whose tongue we tasted, imagining all sorts of tactile feel through skin, made conscious prejudices. We compare and contrast everything that we encounter. For me, not a simple thing to get out of such work habits of mind to the experience is a direct and pure way possible consistency between what we do and beyond.

To be able to grasp the whole situation immediately any occurrence, a phenomenon called a philosophy rather than a "pure experience," I have overcome the fear of death. I must confess that before until this experience in the monastery, my life is full just a relentless succession of physical suffering and mental.

I would like to recount here a stupid incident happened when begging for food, in a period that whether asleep or awake, the court also permeated my mind and my only thought then just " I want to be enlightened ... I want to be enlightened ... "do not pay any attention to what was in front or behind, I had bumped into something; Looking back, it turned out I did crash into a cow's butt! Right now I've just got stabbed in the buttocks cow, beyond surprise, the first thing I said was in the mind is "Oh, is this enlightenment!"

In the interior we have the most solid audience, always criticize and judge its condition.Even when it came to the state of complete exhaustion, the mind often has a capital protection or discrimination and will never forget is the "I", always busy there, whispering a small drop everything miscellaneous gossip. In my case, driven by little knowledge and little experience that I've Order episode, the voice whispered security guards also a most unfounded as follows: "If we continue like this I will die. Must stop immediately go. "

Zazen meditation then, I did not reap nothing but sadness and fatigue; both mind and body, I started to not work normally. The thought I would surely die if we continue like this had popped up many times, disrupting my practice. But in order for you to know the ending before paraphrasing, I can say that things have not went to the turn lane that I had feared. The exhaustion and the pain does not make the dead ends of the walk, but on the contrary, has perverted a detour and go right back to the starting place that I've started.One night, at midnight, I was sitting with a mass of fatigue weighed on pillows meditation, the mind and the mind as deluded away in an ambiguous situation, no longer the strength to arouse the desire to be more enlightened; when suddenly, of thick fog shrouded suddenly melts and unravel a world suddenly visible. See clearly, hear clearly, but it was a world in which no longer saw the "I"! I could never fully explained to him how the status. If you try to explain past will get lost in the other direction. There is one thing I am sure that in that moment, I was aware of absolutely pure calculation of interest can I have as soon as they are born. I could not suppress a surge of joy. Not wanting to wait until the bell room to wake in the morning, I went to see him unexpectedly and he was allowed to leave the temple for two hours to get news about this experience for Zuigan Roshi.

I walk through the dark shadows, Daishuin temple in less than an hour. When I arrived, the Master is still lying in bed. I crawled up to near his knees, summarized, "After all, I saw it."

Roshi sat up, stared at me for a while actually scrutiny, then said, "Now it is started.Only new start. Let's dwell for steadiness. "

That's all he told me. From then until sixteen years later, until I entered the forties and the Master Zuigan died at the age of eighty-seven, whether in a monastery or monasteries where I also continued koan . No, I have to say that until now I still continue. Here is not just a matter of koan Zen koan which is a matter of real life, human life, continue indefinitely forever.

Awakening see the face of their future - "enlightened" - does not mean the ability to explain their human or know his roots. Enlightenment is free from problems of knowledge and experience accrued privacy and a long stick long life that we did not know, such as the residue or buildup of plaque closed tightly in the circuit Thus our blood. It is the expression of flexible, real life of the primitive mind was already there when we were born ... the mind has no form, no brain, no head-on anywhere, nor stick to the ceiling or ideological identity, but always very active transport. After all, enlightenment is not the final point, which is the starting point more.

I said very wordy about life in a monastery, a problem seems completely irrelevant to your private life read. However, everyone, no matter where they live life, how are you watch yourself is foremost. Everyone wants to be happy. And enlightenment is the starting point of the source of happiness. We can use the word "belief in man made" instead of the word "enlightenment". His confidence in his true human is a crucial thing to bring happiness.

Capacity of confidence in himself not achieved through cultivation. Vast capacity beyond our physical body, life itself has brought into our being. The purpose of meditation is to wake the available capacity that we had forgotten to go, not to get into a new capacity. Once you've searched and searched to the end, you will realize what you have available from the beginning - even before you start looking - is full of mystery like. After you've knocked on the door constantly and continuously, you realize that in fact the door has expanded even before you start beating your hands on. Amendment is to bring it back to us.

Not only in the place that is specifically created for the practice, which at any time and where a human endeavor in the stately, not worrying about the result and did not shrink from the disappointment expectations, was a religious man, one who really go the path. I believe only one thing that is also a form of joy bring benefit to humans.END=NAM MO AMITABHA BUDDHA.( 3 TIMES ).VIETNAMESE TRANSLATE ENGLISH BY=THICH GIAC TAM.THE MIND OF ENLIGHTENMENT.VIETNAMESE BUDDHIST NUN=GOLDEN AMITABHA PURELAND=AUSTRALIA,SYDNEY.11/11/2016.